Counting down the days

So it's finally summer. I should be relaxing, shopping, planning fun adventures, pool and beach days, but instead, i am stressed. Yesterday i was at the hospital for hours. First I had to meet with a nurse practioner to fill me in on info for my surgery. She told me how to prepare and what i'll need to do after. But more importantly she scared the crap out of me with talk about how it's possible i could develop a blood clot after the surgery and that'll mess everything up. oh and i can't drink until after my surgery now or be around smoke or that could cause a blood clot. and the medication i'm already on makes it more likely i could develop a blood clot. i know the chances are still slim that it could happen and they just have to tell you all the things that could go wrong (risks with every surgery), but it still scared me. i've never had a big surgery before. all i've ever had done is get my wisdom teeth out and get lasek eye surgery. so this is kind of scary.

after hearing about all the risks and aftercare stuff of my surgery, i had to go to another part of the hospital and get some testing. i had to get blood work done, chest xray, and an ekg which i've never had before. it was so awkward having an ekg done by a male doctor. i had to lay there with my chest exposed while he put these suction cup-like things on me. fun!! haha needless to say it was a longgg, weird day.

i have been really okay about my whole surgery and then it just like hit me. i'm getting really serious surgery the 22nd and i'll be in bed for like a month. even after i'm healed and everything i might have to get physical therapy and i'll have to take it easy for a few months after. everything is going to change really soon and it's just a weird thought. it's like all i can think about. why can't i just be worrying about working and partying and my 21st bday? haha i am such a baby i can't stop complaining.

okay welllll back to work i suppose. i'll write more (and complain less) later i'm sure.