Overview

You're involved in something new today that may be even more exciting than your usual bold new initiatives. Maybe you're planning a huge party or getting involved with someone romantically.

that was my horoscope for today. SO FALSE!

my throat is killing me - I CANNOT BE GETTING SICK RIGHT NOW! i have new years to prepare for. jesus. why does GOD hate me!? lol

i complain way too much...

that's all folks...

yoga is amazing...
i won't become like "one" of those but it is doing great things for my mind and body.
new years resolution starting early.
i need to drink...

love actually... is all around

I'm watching love actually right now. it would be nice if real life were like these romantic comedies. i've never had anything even remotely sweet and wonderful happen to me with a guy like that before. 

and why are guys with accents so damn irresistible? i always seem to click with guys that i'll have no chance of seeing EVER again. and then when i hang out with these completely wrong guys i wind up seeing a guy that i really do like and would actually be able to see again and again. ughhhh only meeeeee. what a weekend. and it's only saturday afternoon. wow.

anyway, so i'm just watching cute movies, working on stuff for finals, and waiting for school to be done on thursday. then i'll officially be on xmas break and hope that something exciting happens for the holidays. positive thinking positive thinking. 

love actually better come into my life already.

-m

why am i so akward?

anyway...
i decided i am going to start bikram yoga tomorrow. basically the room is 105 degrees and you go through 26 positions. This is going to be very very interesting. I hope I get addicted, lose some weight, and it helps me become more calm and think more positively. i am pumped and so ready! i actually want it to be tomorrow so i can go and try it out. i am doing 30 days for 30 bucks and if i like it i will spend the money to keep on doing it.

update tomorrow night on how it went!

why am i not sleeping...

i am definitely going to regret this decision tomorrow morning.
fuck me. i'm so dumb.

so i am going to try this new thing where i become more spiritual and a positive thinker. over break i'm gonna get those books like "the secret" and try to get my life on another path. is it weird? i want to be spiritual and more positive energy in my life. so maybe i'll start out with that if i want this certain situation to work out i will keep on thinking that it will work out and think positive. but how do i stay positive when it isn't consistent and it is a bit of a suprise. do i really have to make that move? me... really...

i am so bad in those situations. this may be the first time that i've actually really been in this situation. the last time was just a fluke. this one is going to be hard to get over like really hard if it doesn't pan out the way i would like it to.