i am sorry

neglect

i am sorry...

i've been blogging at iamchristinako.tumblr.com

come on over to read my incoherent ramblings.

the flyers are two minutes and five seconds away from making the playoffs.

one more month of classes.

i should be at the gym...

or doing work. this structure is annoying. i am sorry.

back to reality...

so spring break is officially over...

time to buckle down and finish my first year as a grad student. the next thing to look forward to is summer vacation. i wonder what i will be doing then...

until then i will leave you with my second favorite CURRENT flyer, braydon coburn:

i like when there is something to look forward to everyday. it makes mundane things a little better.
:)

ahhhh

i have no time to write, think, breathe, de-stress. i haven't written in a very long time... this needs to change. i need to make time!

last night i started freaking out about my life. i'm graduating in may and have nothing lined up for the summer or fall yet so everything is up in the air. my internship this semester is taking over my life and doing nothing for me but look pretty on my resume. i guess that's a good thing but i've been so negative and stressed and tired lately because of it.  so last night i had a bit of a meltdown. i sent my resume to just about EVERYONE and started searching for new apartments/condos in the area (which led to more freaking out over $$). i even worked out and went on the elliptical for a while to de-stress but my exercise was limited because i went tanning after class  yesterday (need to prep for spring break and look less albino) and wound up very very red. haha so yea, i did what i could without hurting my sunburn.

anyway, i woke up this morning feeling like i had been productive last night to some guys at my apartment putting in a new boiler (no more cold showers!) and had already heard back from some companies. SCORE. okay, i feel a little less worthless and poor now that i know i might actually have some options. and at the very least, i can take long, hot showers now.

i skipped class...

i am just so tired. i have been getting at least six hour of sleep every night, but i just wake up exhausted. i am breaking down.

i feel like my dreams are telling me something. i really need to start paying attention to them more often. for example, i feel as though my dreams on Saturday and Tuesday night had me prepared for recent events. HA. f that.

i need to write this letter let everything out and then not just talk about it again.

shopping and dudes...

The title says it all. Those are the only two things that cross my mind at this time usually. ugh I wish it was something else. Anyway, instead of talking about dudes (look at posts below), I am going to post some things that I want to purchase for myself:

I NEED these things ASAP:

i just need shoes and jean shorts. i'm going to have to go to the thrift store and just get my own and do it myself.

need to get in the shower.

other than the whole shopping issue, i need to cut myself off from the internet for other reasons OR i need to distract myself with something else. i hate myself sometimes.

MySpace Music Presents Blog Check: Brandon Boyd of Incubus


ah. where have you been hiding.
i <3 incubus. not too keen on their two newest records but they were my ultimate in high school.
marry me brandon boyd.
love that new haircut.

swoon...

he makes me swoon. why don't dudes i know look like him...

My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you...

i love the new kelly clarkson song. it is my favorite song at this moment. i cannot stop listening to it. i must listen to it at least once or maybe ten times a day. it is like my other favorite kelly clarkson song, since you been gone. kelly clarkson makes me so happy.

5 more weeks until dominican republic.
i've been doing the gym and eating well thing. gotta keep up with it and hopefully i'll look like marissa miller one day.

on a different note, over it. i look back and i was pathetic and it is really embarassing. eeeeek!

went to a party last saturday night...

i need a new crush or dude in my life.
that is all.
goodnight.
why am i not sleeping?

just kidding we are going to puerta plata
March 16 - 21, 2009
We are going to book tomorrow.

2 months until bathing suits.
AHHH!

in other news, i made pasta salad for the entire week. it was fun chopping up all the veggies and such. can't to cook for my husband and children (not!) i'm going to come up with something to make for the entire week do that from now on. it is just a lot easier for me and my wallet. got to pay for this vacation and try to get my mommy and daddy a computer that i was supposed to get them for christmas. ooops.

i miss home, my parents, ceci, my bed, and you. maybe i should go to PA for the weekend soon!

i don't want to go to class

i'm not resizing this picture because all I can say is

yum...

need a vacation

so in march a bunch of us are thinking about going here...

punta cana, dominican republic

it will be five days and four nights of pure bliss and relaxation.
however, that means i will be having to wear one of these:
which means i will be doing a lot of this
until then.

that was a bad idea...

i decided to spray my new suede shoes with the protectant spray i have and i think i may be getting high off of it. i am just full of smart ideas.

tomorrow, i'm getting a hair cut. can't wait. getting some excess baggage off my head. i know it's been a month already since the beginning of the new year, but i feel as though this hair cut will be a start to something new. i never get haircuts. i usually resort to it once a year. so i'm going to clean it up and hopefully cleaning up the rest of my life.

here is one wish of mine - i wish i was a better dancer. while at kate's on saturday, something came over me (maybe it was the pbr) but i just wanted to dance and no one could stop me. i just kept on dancing and couldn't stop. there was one point i was dancing behind unsuspecting victims. lol. there was supposedly a cute dude, checking out my awesome dance moves, but i was way too preoccupied. if i knew he was there, i probably would have stopped. i have huge problems. sometimes, one just wants to dance but everywhere to dance in nyc (bars, lounges, and clubs) are just too creepy. there are just too many creeps out there that ruin that mood. ugh so i will resort to kate's joint for my boogieing down. see you there.

this picture almost made me gag on my pita.

new crush...

i have a new ideal dude (crush)...
hunter parrish

yes, please...


he's cute, very talented, dorky, and just plain adorable.
he's on spring awakening and i just went to see it Melissa. Best Christmas gift ever.
spring awakening is on 49th and 8th ave. i work on 46th and 8th ave.
somehow, i will need to "run into him" (stalk) and entice him with my great personality.
lol

in my dreams...

happy 2009!

love it. love everything about this look. she looks adorable...

sometimes (rarely), i wish i could bleach my hair blond. i would not look too cute right now being a blond though because of the paleness.

gotta work on it.